By Nagisha Shiratori
Life goes on…..surely I know that my life will change, it will turn to be “happy ending” story…but,, I don’t know why, it seems like I’m desperate, I don’t have anything, anyone to blame…I just blame my self,, it makes me feel…aarggghh…God, what’s your plan??????????
Is my destiny end like this?? God tell me….what’s your beautiful plan for me??? Give me a sign for me,, I’m really tired hanging on in this situation,, God…….
I never cry in front of people around me, they maybe think that I’m a strong, tough and always keep on my smile for them,, but, actually…they’re wrong !!!! I am weak, lonesome, and I need attentions,love and joy from many people,, telling the truth…………… I AM ALONE !!!!!
I usually cry in front of God, God knows everything,, sometimes I blame all this fucking situation to God,, I share, and tell everything to God,,, I only trust you, God,,, no one else,, please give me more strength…and happiness for my ending,” I said that sentences everytime I pray…..
Why they leave me alone here?? Why they don’t care for me?? Where r all of my BBF??? Am I do something wrong??? Where’s my boy???? Where are they??? Such a fuckin’ questions….
Broken heart so many times, I don’t know when it will end,, I’m tired,,,,when will I find my true love??? Still a big question,, bu I;m sure that God has a beautiful plan for me,, I just need to wait and see…
I just don’t wanna be alone,,, I need to be with them,who care and make me happy anytime,, but will i??? the person that I considered to be my best friend ,now I know that she’s not my best friend…fuck!! A friend won’t let her friend alone and always keep and support, no matter happens,, but she’s not….I’m so disappointed and regret all that I gave for her, when she was still be my best friend…It hurts me so much,bitch…!!
My tears r rolling down my face,, I don’t have spirit and strength to do anything,, everyone leaves me…..who will be in my side.????
And many other problems,,, I just need care and support from everyone around me,,, but I can’t get that…now I don’t care anymore,, I’m gonna live my life by my self, no matter what happens…you know I’m a though and strong woman,,
I’m looking for my friends, but they leave me…………….
I’m looking for my love, but he’s gone……………………….
I’m looking for my family, but they’re far away…………
I”m looking for my God, and I find what I’m looking for…………..God always besides me………:D
noonanagisha 